Nocturnally-Helpless

Haunted by a sweet memory a glance of perfection an eternal moment of serenity dismayed myself into chaos a chaotic strain of dementia endless spiral of agony agonizing feel of destruction wording my epitaph quietly withdrawing all my senses restricting my happiness into your existence my sweet phantasy my sweet agony my nightmare the paths are long and empty supplicating for my salvation those walls those mountains and then there is you my phantasy,my nightmare

a silent wish for peace a blur dream of serenity a calm feeling of existence a chaotic sense of solitariness in the coldness of night the sonnets of a lonely heart in the strings of the moonlight a shivering spine of a soul so bright standing atop a hill of ecstasy gazing towards the moon contemplating the worth of a spirit wandering still seeking clues for raising up this hill intoxication leads my mind astray sobered by a cry of a wolf why a spirit so worthless to betray?

sweet illusions blind my sight bended truths feast on my fright a dark gloomful labyrinth beckons my mortal body becharming into immortal ecstasy come near my child reach my entwining vines taste my intoxicating glorious dew I’ll take you to places you’ve never knew come near my child refrain from my blackened core and bless those mickle of phantasies draw the line of love and hatred lead your way into oblivion and when your lost observe my shadows of light drink from my bottomless fountain of sight and your spine will shiver from my cool breeze conquer me,child just stride through the maze because tomorrow shall

awaiting you living you as a long blissful dream in the serenity of a moonlight within the embrace of your shadow sate my anguish into ecstasy awaiting you atoning all my days of solitude your silhouette projects an eternal tranquility through a hollow existence I call for you come to me nourish my false being for that I am a mere void to you murmuring your name to mesmerize your slumbering senses I am here chaotic sentiments flooding my weak heart I conceded my pain mend me !

I long for my days of innocence I long for my days of purity I long for everything I was I long for everything that i'm not stained by time stained by sin stained by lust oh God! I long for everything that i'm not I lost control cried for a new beginning nigher was the end fluttered sighs flickered sight imprisoned by agony crippled by awe fear kept me paralyzed I am yearning for change

Shattered pieces of a cursed soul Seeking shelter embody whole Meritless existence Hindrance portrait Roaming souls Pleading faith Am I alive? Am I dead? Deathless life Lifeless death Lost… All places are filled Alone … Walls constantly built No voice can take away the guilt Oh lord of the souls to thou I bow Release me Set me free

Salvation is what I’m seeking freedom is what I’m lacking redeem my withered soul now, I’m packing sailing to eternity bequeathing a weathered flesh sedated by the breeze of heaven ceaseless glory! Tranquil peace! To thee I pray deliver my soul... to make the journey towards paradise...

Tell me my soul is doomed Tell me my body is poisoned Embitter my mind Amplify my suffer And I will contemplate my punishment Never proclaimed my thoughts Never portrayed my passion Killed before I was born And I will bear the astonishment Glory for my soul to come Glory! Look inside All subside Looking for another soul to up heave Yet my soul is bedimmed And my body will be rammed to leave